A crazy stressed out day

I am having a terrible time of it today. I feel as if I've had a drunken binge but over the last few weeks I've cut my alcohol consumption down to less than ten units a week so It isn't that.

My whole body feels ill, I have joint and muscle aches, my sinuses burn, tinnitus which has steadily increased is a load ringing in both ears, but slightly biased to the left side now. I feel bloated and nauseous. My neck and right shoulder is tight, my lower back uncomfortable when I move I have painful twinges which feel light muscles in spasm being wrenched out of position.

Today is IVA hearing day. At the first meeting all of my creditors agreed to the proposals except Her Majesty’s Revenue and Customs. They managed to inflate my debt to them by almost one hundred percent by applying estimates that are just plainly wrong. I have written to them asking that they reconsider. Even if they do I am extremely concerned now about my ability to pay. I have had no work for two months now and work that I had been promised has been pulled due to lack of funds. What to do, what to do?

I ain’t the type for praying Lord, just a little bit of luck will do.

Uncertainty Principle

I have just been struck by a thought. A thought about uncertainty.

Heisenberg's Uncertainty Principle states that both definite position and definite momentum do not exist in quantum mechanics [wikipedia http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Uncertainty_principle].

Let's try and conduct a thought experiment concerning the definition of the present.

When I try to focus on the passing of time I am making an observation. By attempting to focus on and observe the present, I am trying to focus on increasingly smaller observation times i.e. t'' - t' tends toward zero.

If I define the present as the smallest possible change in time that my mind can observe and assume that this is at the quantum level then at that level of focus the uncertainty in my position must become real.

What happens if I try to 'ride time' in the same way that Einstein imagined riding light?

Swept Aside

The phone or doorbell rings, I walk away
From the debts that call or knock.
In equal measure fortune's whims
Join our unforgiving fiscal sins
To hunt us down.

God only knows how I became so poor
At mortgaging fun's borrowed expectation.
Bad cash decisions sneer costly smiles:
Smile cars, meals and foreign holidays.
Smile and snigger.

I thank the luck of history's draw that
The workhouse is an attraction. But shame
Remains and each domino that tumbles numbs
My family's love I fear. I failed to make a
success of life.

In five tough years half a million
Pounds of tax and wages paid counts
For nothing. Hopeless bitterness and
Anger at those helped are poisonous
Rewards for those

Who are the human costs of greed.
I was greedy and I had hubris too
Qualities that some have put to use.
Their gains and my losses coincide,
Holding you I'm swept aside.